Ann O. on January 17, 2010
I am in upper-middle management with a medium-sized company.
Like a lot of companies, my company has been forced to make tough decisions regarding layoffs in the past year.
There is increased focus on being on time to work, putting in many hours and getting work done in the most efficient and cost-effective way possible.
Last year, I had five CT scans, a PET scan, three bone scans, two bone density tests, two biopsies and a lumpectomy. I also had to take off for some necessary dental work and a heart procedure for my disabled husband.
I don't feel that I can explain my situation to eveyone at my large office.
Of course it's stressful running out of days off and having no days for my family.
Now my treatment plan has been changed to include 5 weeks of daily radiation. When I went to the consult appointment, I made the appointment first in the morning, and the doctor didn't even think about seeing me until over a half-hour after my appointmement time, then didn't have my records.
I had to leave because I was under a deadline and others were relying on me at work for their deadlines.
So three things are mainly stressing me out.
I need to keep my current job and do a good job.
I need to appear to others at work to be putting in 110 percent, but don't wish to share my cancer or treatment with everyone at work.
I feel that my healthcare professionals have no respect for my time or the fact that if I lose my job I will have no insurance and no money, and pretty much no one will hire me at my age with cancer with comparable salary and benefits in the current economy.
I'm considering forgoing the radiation, and combing through websites looking for reasons that it might not be necessary when I know that it is. This says to me that I am not thinking objectively.