Anna R. on January 11, 2022
I took a position in November out of desperation to get health insurance and an income (I also had hoped I'd like it). Soon after I accepted, I found out very unexpectedly I was admitted to not one, but multiple graduate programs, including one university offering me 100% tuition merit-based scholarship that would require me to relocate. Because I would not be starting for another 9ish months, given the state of the academic world with online/in-person, and because frankly, I needed the money and benefits I went ahead and started the job. To makes things even more shady on my part, when asked in the interview for this position when I'd go back to school, I said "not for years". Now, I am here, feeling incredibly guilty that they are putting in all this work and training and hearing constantly how much they needed someone else, and here I am knowing I will be quitting in 6 months. Not to mention, this job is not what I expected and I am absolutely miserable.
I know I am under no obligation to tell them I have been admitted to school and will be leaving earlier than necessary, but I am wondering if it's a horrible idea to stay in this position given that it will be a bad reference moving forward because of misleading them and getting the impression they aren't happy with my performance (I push back on their outdated policies and I don't think they appreciate it). Did I mention I have horrible anxiety coming to work because I don't like it and that they gave me offensive pushback when I tried to file for ADA accommodations because I was still in my orientation period? If it was just a few months, I could likely leave it off my resume (although then I'd have a big gap to explain). Given that I seem to be stuck in this job for at least another few months, how will I in the future deal with the fact that I can't give them as a reference? I'm in nursing and they ALWAYS require most recent supervisor. Given that I'm on a 90--day probation always the case for new nurse positions), would it be best to leave after that instead rather than keep going with the job? Help!