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Amanda M. on February 27, 2018
I was Diagnosed with:
Acute Myeloid Leukemia
Type and Description of Treatments:
I was out of work for 6 months going through 3 rounds of chemotherapy where I had to be in the hospital and my white blood cell count would drop to 0, so they wanted me not in the workplace dealing with so many germs. I am now through all the treatment and am in full remission. I am trying to get back to living a normal life. I am currently applying for work. But I'm being picky, because life is too short to work at a job that doesn't make you happy.
How do you feel today?
I feel great! and I'm ready to work, even if it's just part time.
Since the diagnosis, what has changed in your life?
I have started to re-evaluate who I am and what I want in life. Having a job where I can help others has become a very important part of what I'm looking for.
What is going well for you right now?
I have been journaling every day and I'm trying to get back to a normal schedule
What is not going well for you right now?
most days I end up watching television. I'm trying to work on changing that and do more during the day.
What has been the most challenging thing about having cancer?
During treatment I kept getting severe anal pain. That was the worst thing about treatment. Two times I ended up in the hospital because they were worried about infection. I was in and out of the hospital a lot and that was he most challenging part of treatment. Since then, I've been struggling with depression, mostly about life. How do I get back to a normal life, when the thought of working sends me into a panic attack.
When difficulties overwhelm you, where do you go for support?
My husband, or my sister or Mom mostly. I also see a cancer psychologist occasionally.
How have your long-term goals or life goals changed since diagnosis?
My long term goals are still mostly the same. But one thing that I am more focused on is adding an element of helping others to my goals. I really want to be a life coach or a speaker that can inspire others.
What is your work arrangement right now? What are your hours?
Since the diagnosis, what has changed in your work life?
I was terminated from my position that I held when I was diagnosed due to being out of work for 6 months.
What has helped you continue to work the most?
Nothing. I haven't been able to find a job in my field.
What advice do you have for others trying to work through treatment?
I didn't try to work through treatment. I wasn't able to. But I encourage those you can to do so. But working for a job that has flexible hours is helpful. Don't push yourself too hard. Chemo brain, can make it difficult to focus, or to do things you normally found simple.
How have you dealt with any side effects of treatment?
during treatment, I had chemo brain which is like a fuzzy feeling that takes away your ability to do normal tasks, I also had the anal pain that landed me in the hospital twice and the occasional nausea.
If "today's you" could give advice to "day-of-diagnosis you," what would you say?
Live life to the fullest and spend time with loved ones. Life is short.