I have a job but it's making me feel trapped and depressedSave as Favorite
I have a job but with my cancer (brain tumor - oligodendroglioma stage 2) but I feel extremely stuck. I have a wife and two kids to support but now I feel as if there is no way I can go anywhere in my career and my job is extremely un-fulfilling.
I am 37 years old and I always wanted to pursue a creative career and to some my job might be considered creative as I do web design. To me it is like a prison cell. I am completely at the mercy of my clients and have no input on what I create. I have become a tool for folks who can't or don't want to know how to use technology. I feel the same way I did when I was in the Army. Cancer has become my prison cell. I am highly prepared and qualified for a creative career but at my position, creative experience is not really regarded in high esteem.
I am a cog in a machine with a ticking time bomb in my brain. I write poetry to help with my depression but I truly think working this job makes my situation worse. I don't think I can mentally handle work. I am on lots of medications, anti-anxiety, anti-depresion, anti-psychotic all to balance my mood from my anti-seizure meds.
I am not sure what to do. I'd love to help work for an organization that helps with cancer or environmental causes. If I could feel my work is helping in some way and that my creative background is respected and utilized I believe I could do it. Please review my web sites and this post and let me know where I'm going wrong.