Anxiety over job search + pressure to take any job b/c of benefits
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I was diagnosed with early stage papillary thyroid cancer last January, and have since had my thryoidectomy and RAI treatment. All in all, things are ok and I'm plugging along with adjusting to the new normal--- adjusting to thyroid medication and its various little side effects, feeling more anxiety than I've been used to pre-cancer, etc.
My situation is that since diagnosis, I've been able to keep busy with various part-time jobs, internships (I was attempting a career transition and would still like to transition), and some freelancing at my old company. I was interviewing for a while (before the holidays), but still no offers.
I've been on COBRA for my health insurance, but it will be ending in mid-Feb. I know I can obtain individual health insurance under HIPPA but that it'll be pricey. I'm feeling a certain pressure to get a new job to have benefits, but I'm feeling anxiety over what type of jobs I should be applying for/pursuing.
I used to be in a high-stress job (in advertising), but now I just don't want the stress (I just want to be happy!); but yet my experience all points towards advertising. My old company is aware of my situation and offered my job back (at 30 hrs instead of 40 hrs), but I'm hesitant about going back. I had quit for a reason (I didn't feel like I was learning and I didn't like the stress), and feel that going back would back bring stress and unhappiness. I've been able to freelance there the past couple of months (at 20-25 hrs) and that's been manageable because I know I'm just freelancing.
Anyway, I'm not exactly sure what my question is, but I'd appreciate any thoughts or suggestions on my circumstance.