Tired and sad

My entire life has been turned upside down. My husband and I moved into a new home in March to start a family. We had just started parenting classes. We are/were in the process of adopting a 3-6 year old from the foster care system in our state. This of course has been put on hold.

My friends and family have been very supportive and loving.

It is stressful at times with my husband. It is all so new right now. I am on an emotional roller coaster.

The diagnosis is a month old. I am going to have my second treatment tomorrow. The side-effects have been difficult. It's also hard not knowing how I will feel from day to day.

I realize I need to join a support group where I can speak to women who are going through what I am.

I still hope to start a family. I am trying to be positive about my future.

My employer is flexible with me and only expects 24 hours of work per week. I am quickly burning through my PTO and Vacation. My employer will allow me to go into the "hole" but I will have to pay it back (the hours) which seems overwhelming at times.

I manage a department. My employees aren't working as hard as they could as there isn't the same level of accountability if I am not there.

I am still trying to figure out if I can handle an 8-hour day or if I should be working 1/2 days. Right now I find I am wiped out the day after I work 8 full hours. I am trying to arrange to do some work from home.

To stay busy, productive, interactive with others and keep my mind off of myself and condition.

Stay positive.....use all of the resources offered to you.

It has been rough. I have tried to follow the doctors recommendations for managing them. I do not let days go by without addressing them. The minute a side-effect arises that I am instructed to tell the doctor about, I call her.

Stay body aware. You know your body - talk to your doctor if you don't feel well. If you aren't happy with any of your current doctors shop around until you find the right one. My doctors have all been awesome.