Today I feel conflicted. I want to feel good because I don't really have any pain or discomfort today. The sun is shining, I worked in the yard earlier but 2 hours and I have this nagging fatigue. 3 months ago I could garden or golf all day. I feel dull and a little teary.

I am relying on other people more. I have learned how important small considerations can be.

I have more use of my arm, earlier than I was told I would. I still could not take anything heavy off of a shelf above my head but I can dry my hair and do most other tasks.

I am worried about being sick. I have never been sick. I felt so good when this started. How can I be this ill and not know it. It's very scary.

Accepting it. I am a great helper. It's harder to accept help than to give help.

My old business partner and his wife. He wanted to retire last year so we sold our business after 20 years, he retired and I went to work as a manager for the new owner. They are very dear friends. Also the people from my church have been amazing. Many people have brought me food, sent me cards, come by to see me. It overwhelms me how kind they have been.

My goals haven't changed, I am just unsure I will ever get to do them. I wanted to retire in 5 years. I might not make that. Then again I might. So my confidence is shaken.

I am a salaried Manager. I work full time and/or until the job is done. My oncologist told me that I wouldn't be able to work. That would not work for me. Not only do I need the income I need the diversion.

Any changes have only been positive. I have been recovering from my surgeries so I was weight restricted a little. But all of the people who work for me and with me have been very supportive.

My employer has been very flexible. I have used all of my sick leave at this point. But our conversations have only been supportive. The owner has assured me they will work with me throughout the rest of the treatment. I can only hope that's true. I have no reason at this time to doubt it.

I don't have enough time trying to work thru this yet to give advice on this. I worked as much as I could around my surgeries and tried to make my time away from my store invisible as to its effect. I did that by working more when I could and carefully assigning tasks for my away time.

I have learned to ask for help. I try not to show how uncomfortable it makes me.

I would tell me that I would be fine. That my ability to stay in the moment and focus only on what is happening today would help. To keep up the good work. Also to not look at the after mastectomy pictures on the websites and to not have that mini melt down at the pictures of the bald women on the back of the newspaper inserts.
It would only give me a headache.