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Janice G. on March 7, 2010
I was Diagnosed with:
Invasive Ductal Carcinoma
Employment Status:
Self Employed
Gender/Age:
52
Type and Description of Treatments:
Lumpectomy, then Sentinel Node Biopsy, Beginning TC Chemo in one week. I then will have 33 radiation treatments and then Hormonal treatment for 5 years.
How do you feel today?
Grateful. Anxiety ridden. Fearful.
Since the diagnosis, what has changed in your life?
It seems everything has changed; yet so little has. My priorities have changed some, my love has grown deeper for my husband and daughter, and the sun seems to shine a bit brighter. I find myself leaning on my husbands' strengths much more....weird since I usually want to do everything myself...
What is going well for you right now?
Well, this question is difficult for me to answer...I cannot find anything that is going wrong. Yes, I am faced with many obstacles and such, but I am getting through them so I guess "I" am going well right now!
What has been the most challenging thing about having cancer?
Not knowing what lies ahead...I am scheduled to start chemo in 7 days, and I have so many questions about what it feels like and things like that, and I cannot bring myself to call on support groups and the likes...I have never done that and I know I should, but I just can't seem to do it...
When difficulties overwhelm you, where do you go for support?
Husband.
How have your long-term goals or life goals changed since diagnosis?
None have changed so far...but my journey is just beginning.
What is your work arrangement right now? What are your hours?
Work at home....I make my own hours
Since the diagnosis, what has changed in your work life?
I am self employed and have had to cut back due to Dr. Appts, and 2 surgeries
What has helped you continue to work the most?
I work from my home office...that is a great thing...
What advice do you have for others trying to work through treatment?
Be honest and open with your superiors and co-workers. Do not be afraid to delegate....Most people like knowing they are helping you out...
How have you dealt with any side effects of treatment?
I have not started chemo as of yet...7 more days
If "today's you" could give advice to "day-of-diagnosis you," what would you say?
Chill......take a deep breath....